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20260219

2026/2/19

7:30 起床

やはり睡眠が浅い

3-4時間で意識が醒める

大抵、目が開かないからまた寝る

2時間くらいでまた起きる

そういえばカメラと周辺機器を買ったよ

モノが届き次第、調整してテスト配信しよかな

土日に間に合えば嬉しい

親が私宛の重要ハガキを勝手に開けてるんだが

ﾊｧｰｰｰｰｰｰ

他者の欲求を叶えることと自分の心を守ることが両立できない

私の許容値が狭い

同時に

どこに自分の尊厳を守る線を引けばいいのか

嫌と思えば抵抗していいのか

ｳｰｰﾝ

知らん男に尻穴掘られるのはヤダな

知らん人にチ〇ポしばかれるのもヤダ

↑は嫌だし明らかな抵抗ラインになるけど

勝手にハガキ開けられるとか

食べ方が汚いとかそういうのは

けっこうしょうもない、口に出すか出さないかのギリギリ

自分が我慢すれば何もない

そういうライン

それが一番、神経を削られる

そしてスマホから

Xをアンインストールしたとさ

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